2010年3月27日土曜日

A Statue of Bombed St. Virgin Maria 


“Mama, Help me!”
“Water…, Give me water…”
Nagasaki is a town which has become ash instantly.
Our arrival at Nagasaki was delayed because a supersized typhoon attacked Fukuoka and stopped train. Therefore we had to visit around the 26 Japanese Apostle Saints Memorial and the Atom Bomb Museum and Urakami Cathedral, the Peace Prayer Statue, Oura Catholic Church, the Grabber’s House with my friend quickly.
Two days later I came back to Tokyo, I felt like having heard voices of women and children. At the same time, my inner voice has been slept for long was revived. I noticed it’s when souls having been wandered in the Purgatory borrowed the power of the 26 Apostle Saints and brought back breath in my half.
The breathing of the sacred soul that returned from the world of the Erebus is hot almost as same as flame of the atomic bomb.
From the moment, not the obligation “that I must pray”, I became often fall into a situation I pray unconsciously.
 Why did Christian in the Edo era follow to Jesus Christ without being afraid of death?
The ticket “Love is stronger than Death” printed , which I got in 26 Japanese Saints Memorial, My heart was caught the word “Ai ha si yori mo tsuyoshi.”
“What is Love?” No time to think having any reason, the Love of Jesus Christ started flaming in my mind slowly. Why did I forget this Love for long? I think the reason why I haven’t touched the town which suffered pain fiercely and the Love of God which overcome it.
Never the Love having excuse、 but the unconditional Love being able to make sunk our body in flame of the Love naturally.

The soldier,
Being brave and purity
Devoted his soul
For the Lord of Heaven
His honor was noble

If the Heaven and Nature died,
His name would be live,
Forever we hand it down,

(The 407th Catholic hymnal)

Before watching the Statue of 26 apostle Saints, I sang this song with my inner mother for me and my friend who didn’t know it, and tore since my mother has passed away after approximately 1years.
The flame which they bored the persecution of torture and of the atom bomb and, of the Love of Jesus Christ, and then the weight of the crime of we human who cannot be healed by ourselves.
Why did attack the Western countries the town which lived in people believed same Christ, so close Urakami Cathedral? Would certain sadism in modern people accompany a kind of pleasure at the moment? The darkness of the sorrow that we cannot express, such as a country of the sorrow written in "The Never Ending Story" ( by Michael Ende).
 We say that the war have never over if they didn’t drop an atom bomb, if we didn’t make a mistake. But we have experienced the suffering of Jesus Christ "Way of the Cross" in our body, if there was a sacrament as I suffered sweat of the blood in each forehead, would not there be the crime that we didn’t need to commit, would you?
The weight of the crime that there "was no help for it" is only an excuse. I found accidentally the Statue of Virgin Mary bombed in the corner of the Urakami Cathedral. It was same as the poster which I watched once in the room of the brother in the church. While I waited for the brother who did not readily come for a meeting of the one round mourning of my mother just a half year ago, I was attracted all the time by the photograph of the Maria Statue. I heard that found from the ruin of a fire of Urakami Cathedral miraculously.
Both of eyes of the Virgin Mary which watched a little on a slippage looking up at the sky, were so burned by an atom bomb that became hollowed . 
I felt pressingly the sorrow of Virgin Mary’s darkness that she cannot become the voice with both the moan and the cry. I felt the movement of the emotion that her sorrow made internalization.
It is the stage that I watched the poster. When I watched the real, such the feelings did not come up. Rather more lightly; I impressed such as being free from all heavy loads. I felt that I was healed, in a true meaning, from a pain of the death of my mother.
The message taken by the poster was a kind of opportunity to the last. I can mention that we can feel the light itself when we encountered a sacred true tabernacle.
 Not only I watch the record of many tragedies at an atom bomb museum, but I think that I was able to trace the process of healing in temples and arts expressed "Way of the Cross"
To keep the peace of whole world in the future, I think our generation who doesn’t know war, should assume be to experience the history of the pain in the sacrament of Jesus Christ
At last, I finish this story saying that I talked to a friend while watching the “the Peace Statue”.
"Does the right hand of the image point to the sky?" And the left hand which straightens aside expresses Peace. In other words, I think he prays for Peace toward the sky. And the left foot which he stands upon the ground, I think that the right foot bent is to do not spare an effort for peace without worrying about the past. It is only my interpretation, to the last.

2010年3月9日火曜日

About me


I was baptized as a three month old baby because my mother became Christian when she was a college student.

I lost my ability to hear because of a side effect from medicine that was given to me. I was brought up by the education of my mother, who loved music and had many musical experiences.

In my early 30’s, some changes began happening in my ears, when I had stopped using a hearing aid.

When I first experienced my ability to hear return, I started to participate in various music activities, such as joining a chorus of “Beethoven symphony No.9” and a music workshop. I trained hard, not only with my physical hearing, but also with my heart.

Only for the one reason of having a hearing problem, I was reluctantly forced into the same preconceptions about handicapped people in general. Therefore, I limited my thoughts and activities unconsciously.

I had a similar experience as a Christian also.

I left religious and handicapped people’s meetings, because my heart and body were repulsed whenever I encountered prejudice.

Now, I’m creating for myself, a new identity called Maria Elizabeth, while carrying out the life of a common woman.



2010年3月8日月曜日

Why is the title of my book Maria Elizabeth?



"Maria Elizabeth" is my Catholic name from the title of my book. St.Maria refers to the mother of Jesus Christ.

Elizabeth was the name of a queen who married a Portutuese king from Spain (1271-1336).

She was pained over the fights in the Royal Family, and so she left her castle, devoting herself to do charity for poor children, often in disguise as a common person, so that they would not know she was their Queen!