"Ave Maria" and a Rosary

Jesus Christ and the Virgin Mary are a man and a woman, but it does not mean they are on opposite sides. The mass of the church is performed as a ceremony of dedication to the Jesus Christ in all of us. On the other hand, I think that it is the prayer of the Virgin Mary that is most easily used in our everyday lives. In a sense, it is similar to the mantra of "Namu Myoho Renge Kyo" of the Lotus School of Buddhism.
It seems to me that it like a crime to follow too rigidly the words of the Bible, which to me, is like wearing thorny clothes.
　

Let’s assume that t a sister from a covenant of contemplation gets on a train and move somewhere. However, even if the train which is a simple mode of transportation, it will become a "hell train" for her. I have got the letter of such contents.
For example, I've felt a terrible sense of guilt like cutting both my body and heart, on Good Friday just before Easter. Though I haven’t commit any crime in particular, I had a sense of guilt in my body (as Jesus Christ was crucified for our sins), and I desperately expiated my sin to share of another stranger. No, not a total stranger, but my own original sin.

My mother put her heart and soul into the interviewer of the complaint with a large number of people as sister; I recollect she seemed to be right Jesus Christ.
Because those people made human relations with mother directly or indirectly, she wanted to make someone’s wish come true, but another’s can’t, and she has become in a fix for be “have the whole world against one”, I supposed.
My mother took both the wish and the complaint of everyone with her, to God, as the form that got very tangled in during her last moments. God judged it, though it is good or bad, but I felt she was sorry.

I am now studying the vocal music “Ave Maria” by C.Gnound, but this is a score with the music for "Ave Maria", by the Annunciation of Holy Mother.

Ave Maria, gratia plena, Dominus tecum,
benedicta tu in mulieribus et benedictus fructus ventris tui Jesus!
Sancta Maria, sancta Maria, Maria ora pro nobis,
nobis peccatoribus nunc et in hora mortis nostrae. Amen.

There are many wonderful composers, including Mozart's version of "Ave Maria" They are all are splendid. “but feel even there are pile up worthless greed and complaint need not to say when I sing."
When I continue singing a Rosary with the hope that I ask the Virgin Mary and make God intercede for me with “Ave, Ave...” as they fall like the rain-dew. If a decade ring fails like rain, I can’t stand, but I feel that it is such.
After finishing my voice lesson, I said this, in spite of my fear, because my teacher is younger than me). "Prayer should be simple, shouldn’t it?”
If almost of all us would pray more often “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” or “Ave, Ave”, there will be decrease in complaint and our greed.

It is difficult for me to sing Ave Maria with my whole heart. This is because I must visualize the music, which is bit too abstract - and I must express it using only my voice.
I also meditate by praying the words “Way of Cross” I’ve never seen and heard while remembering the masterpiece I watched somewhere. I don’t want to pray idly, but my prayers sometimes seem empty. I feel it seems to be a kind of sentiment to reach four-dimensional state finally.
While I tell my rosary’s head as if it is infinite, while coming and going from “the Apostle's Creed” which is the prayer of the future - and “Ave Maria” which is the prayer of the past. ”The Lord’s Prayer” belongs to both the past and future, and so it is of this, three-dimensional world.

Princess Betty

I looked forward studying abroad but it was postponed because a terrorism accident 9/11day at New York and a recently international situation following it. In spite of them, I want to have something aim of studying English not only for abandon my dream of studying abroad having since I was 20 years. But I have changed my destination, to America or Canada, or Britain, as flirtation, so I didn’t think so serious honestly.
But because I had lastly decided to go to Boston standing between English culture and American, and I gave up my plan, so I was looking toward the European points.
And I remembered I was interested in English literary more than American when I was a junior college student. From when I was a elementary school student, I was fond of detective novels as Sherlock Holms and feeling of English culture. The reason that why my Christian name-Maria Elizabeth which it is title of this book was a princess of Portugal, there my balance may be on Europe.
　She is a Saint princess who married into Portuguese King but was worried about struggles in Royal Court but canalized hers energies into charity work.
When I went on a pilgrimage to French, I said a priest,
“I think there is no same Christian name in Japan, if I’ll look for.”
　Why did my parents name me so noble baptismal name to me, because it might be a little united between Japanese Imperial House and my mother house?
But I had a hearing defect since I was child and I don’t like too ceremonious rule and restraint, so it it’s only existence of celestial for Imperial House.
　Although there are something under the guidance of the Spirit for me. I don’t deny there are another superior power leading me sometimes. I regard a modesty friend very much, and I make efforts not to have more proud In spite of it, another I lift up, in a sense saying haughty me.
But I don’t matter, I don’t contradict it I can’t only be found another words. When I visited Kyoto for my cousins wedding, it was happened a miracle by Saint princess power laying in my mind that I’ve came across our diseased Princess Diana riding a car when she went through The Kyoto Imperial Palace in early morning.
This modest confidence leading me who I don’t have so high academic background support me aping to fall down too weak.
But Princess Betty like the common people. Because they show me pleasure of living. There are like people that and this, it is inevitable she(I) see them only a group not being able each.
Princess Betty’s eye direct the weak with a motherly looking . By another power different from my mind.
Princess Betty love Princess Diana. I wish that my studying abroad Britain may come true by this our friendship.

The Notebook from the English Grammar Class

“For you have difficulty hearing, you should major in Japanese. The teacher interviewing the examinees told me. I thought it was unexpected. When I was in high school, I didn’t like ancient writings and Chinese writings, and I thought it was unbearable studying them any more. My English was not good, but I had prepared for my class everyday. It was not hard for me to study it everyday. Therefore I took the examination for the English major.
Before the college entrance examination, my home tutor gave a cold to me, and I caught cold and couldn’t get out of the bed for month. I could go to the graduation ceremony, but I couldn’t enter college that year. I couldn’t remember most of what I’d learned in the past any longer. I couldn’t pass most of the examination next year, either and I was going to have the last examination.
My parents prayed for my passing somewhere. At last, I could come up to their expectations. I was humiliated very much, as if I was caught on the last step of stairs after rolling down, but I went to the entrance with the best score in the department.
The first lecture after entering school was of the English grammar class. Suddenly teacher pointed at me. I thought he was a dismal teacher. I couldn’t answer because I didn’t know what to say and I was answering. From then he had not asked to me answer for two years.
But Mr. didn’t you know that all the answers in the class for two years were my answers from my notebook.
In any case, it was a joy for me to read and write English. It was as if solving a puzzle for me preparing for English classes.
When I came to school in the morning, someone would always ask me to borrow my notebook.
And someone else would copy it, and then it extended all of my class mates. I could get full scores for the English grammar. It was supposed to be hard to pass those tests. Even so, he continued to ignore me.
And there came the graduation day. At the party after ceremony, Mr. F said to me sorry, and also said “I read your thesis.”
I couldn’t be the preventative, but I was appraised for the thesis I wrote for the tragedy of Shakespeare. I thought it was too late to be respected then.
I have got into the habit of walking forward repelling. I think it is just being human to prejudice, but on the other side, I pray there will come the day when there is no prejudice, in people.

LOVE & PEACE Charity Concert

LOVE＆PEACE Charity Concert
supporting FRIEDENS DORF International

12th August 2010, Thu
Start from 18:30 (open 18:00)p.m.
OAG Hall in Goethe-Institut

1)Opening:Rikiya Nishiyama（professor Japan Women’s university GermanHistory of Literature）
2) Story teller show:Akiko Iijima , Kosuke Ito(piano)
3) Songs: Masami Tanto(Sop.) , Jyunji Matsuo(Ten.),You U eda(piano)
4) Chorus:attendance of “German Poetries and Songs”in Women’s　university LLC and Kiyoko Idota(piano)
*Sighnlanguateinter preter:(Eiko Kanazawa)

Maria Elizabeth’s Music Group”
supporting FRIEDENS DORF International

Amazing Grace

I studied "Ave Maria" first inLatin, by Gounod and "Gianni Schicchi” followed by Italian in succession. But I couldn’t get my own vocals easily.
Meanwhile, I spoke with my voice trainer who suggested we sing "Amazing Grace" which I had tried one day at a culture center in Shibuya last month.
My impression, as I watched on TV, the American nation unite and sing after the terrorist incident (September 11, 2001) of New York is fresh and vivid in my memory.
When I sang it once more, I felt its splendid music, that causes a big movement with waves, being sung by various people of many countries, each in their own way.
It is said that this song was sung to expiate the sin of the slavery by emigrants from U.K. to U.S.A., but to tell the truth, it is not so well understood in detail.
Anyway, I heard it has been sung and inherited, from person to person.
As it has been sung in U.S.A. , often called a racial melting pot, it wraps warmly around and heals us.
I was able to sing it naturally, because I’m fond of English, even though I have I’ve never sung before.
"First"、I said to myself, “Let’s memorize it.” Then, I went to a restaurant to read the score many times, while eating a sandwich.
“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wreck like me
I once was last but now I’m found
Was blind but now I see

‘Twas grace that taught heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come
‘Tis grace have brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home”(by Emiko Shiratori)

But there happened　a question in my mind who have ever helped me.
I listened for trial one　of diva being the topic of this year when I went to a CD shop after that.
However, After all, I decided I’m going to pursuing this wide world little and little, as possible as I can, through I had lessons by various instructors.
Anyway, I can feel the reaction is different each only by my taking the song’s name nevertheless it is known by all.
Receiving each thought, I want to gather up my “Amazing Grace” with the warmth as a movie “American Kilt”